[STORY] MY DECISION TO FIND MYSELF BY MARYWHITE
SELF DISCOVERY
(My decision to find myself)*_
_Marywhite_
Growing up as a girl was very very uneasy for me, as one of my biggest challenge was mentorship. Are you thinking I'm an orphan? Hell no π€π€.
As for my parents, they're cool though, but their grooming me back then was focused on Christendom, keeping aside the social and mental aspect of my lifeπ€¦π½♀️π€¦π½♀️ As a result, ignorance towards my true self is something I lived with for a long time.
_How frustrating it was for me_ ππ
I can say with confidence that the moment a person truly starts down the path of self discovery, they will never turn back. Self discovery means a lot of things.
It means *coming to the know of who you are* (Your identity)
*Where you are* (Your goals) and
*Why you are* (Your purpose)π
It is quit pathetic that, so many persons are still ignorant of their true identity and so, have no self worth, happiness or anything they can imagine to live forπ€§π€§.
Are you one of those persons? Have you been wondering how on Earth you can stand to your feet and take responsibilities on your decisions? Worry no more, you've got me.
My story through this article, will open your eyes to an entirely different image of yourself, and decide to live for a purpose.
* *DON'T FAKE A LIFE*
( _Be true to yourself)_
I could remember during my secondary school days, I was one of the few persons who didn't wear an ironed uniform, whose school bag was a black nylon (Amebo), with a shaved hair (even as a woman), but still happy.
In different occasions, a lot of things happened that I wouldn't want to go into details, but the bottom line *; I was true to myself*
Being true to yourself no matter the circumstance, is a stepping stone to discover who really you are, and your ability to do great and mighty thingπ.
* *FREE YOURSELF FROM UNCONSCIOUS STORIES OF LACK AND LIMITATIONS*
The talk about me being eligible and mentally retarded wasn't heard from my mom Alone. Yes, my mom. I already accepted the facts even before I finished from high school. I.e I was also a big contribution to my obstacles. How sadπ.
It was just
after my secondary education I came across a young charming soul, who later became an inspiration to me. I remember the first time I went to his school to see him, I was dressed in a green churchy suit π, which made him very ashamed to even introduce me to his colleagues and friends as his " *girlfriend"*
Sadly, that continued for a long time due to my appearance, level of knowledge and understanding π€¦π½♀️.
I kept holding onto the stories of my being eligible π€¦π½♀️
One day, he asked what I intend becoming, and below was my response
"Well, I've always been the best student of foods and nutrition, I bet I'll make a good nutritionist"
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"Why not go in for nursing due to your kind of personality, gentle, kind and compassionate?" He suggested
"Nooooo. My head can't carry nursing" I responded.πππ
I over fed myself with the stories of lack and limitation, so much so that I couldn't see anything good coming out of my personality other than settling for lessπ€¦π½♀️.
Learn to take your mind off people, things and ideas that won't make you go forward.
* *TAKE ADVANTAGE ON SITUATIONS*
When you don't think positively towards a bad situation, you will never bring out any reasonable idea that would change
it. And the ability to see yourself doing great and mighty things is from an awful situations.
To me, Self discovery is what happens to a man after so many experiences, set backs, disappointments, etc.
Did I tell you I broke up with that charming soul?
Well, we broke upπ€·
Throughout the period of my pain, I was so mad at myself to have been treated worthlessly due to my inability to realize how much more I could offer to the world π
Too many questions flew through my head and the answers I got was basically to take advantage of what I go throug, by acting on my shame and disgrace no matter how long it'll take.
* *HAVE A ROLE MODEL*
Does it really matter?
What if the supposed person to look up at the moment is an enemy, how do I learn from such person?
A lot of people go through this kind of situation and at the end of the day, no improvement.
Learn from me if you will.
My hunger for being better didn't choose if my role model was my enemy. The fact is, I even had to make the girl that was chosen over me my role model. Yes, she was brilliant and outstanding, so, making her my role model was to make sure at a point in my life, I'll be better than her. Gaining knowledge and having all round relevance was the goal, so, the enemy wasn't a big deal.
The more I read, the more I discovered how brilliant I am, and could also do things extraordinarily.
Choose to be better than someone π
* *READ BOOKS IN LINE WITH YOUR IMAGINATION*
The picture in my mind after the heartbreak wasn't a *beautiful nurse* , but a *"World class lady"*
I went into research and got more books concerning the image I was beholding in my imagination.
The more I read those books, the bolder, wiser and more sophisticated I became.
Dare to be different ♥️
Always remember that; whatever you feed your brain with, is also what the mind feeds on. And what the mind feeds on, is what helps the brain to think of the next step to be taken.
I decided to find myself admist all situations.
Follow suit and be maveled at what you can do.
Stop being a slave to yourself. Self discovery, is freedom from self slavery.
Choose to be freeππππππ
[STORY] MY DECISION TO FIND MYSELF BY MARYWHITE
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Marywhite*